so you want to be a writer?
Yes. Yes, I do. I have wanted this my whole life. I wrote stories when I was a kid and even entered a young authors' competition. When I was little I did not doubt that all possibilities were open to me. Then as an 11-year-old girl, I experienced CSA and all of the sudden the only thing available to me was pain, anger, and darkness. As my mind warped around what had happened everything became distorted. My nights were consumed with nightmares and my days were filled with self-harm and thoughts of suicide. I didn’t think I would live to be 20 let alone achieve my dreams of being an author.
It took many years and a lot of work to heal from that experience. I gained knowledge and healing from many different sources and teachers: Buddhism, yoga, meditation, EFT, spiritual & physical connection, writing, meditation, magic, and nature. All of these things helped me take those first steps out of the darkness and into the light to become who I was meant to be and create the life I dreamt of living. It truly is a magical and joyful experience to start believing in yourself and realize all that is possible!
In late 2019 I read Oprah’s book The Path Made Clear and began to open up to the idea I could create the life I want. I started to dream about writing again but was still unsure of myself. I didn’t trust my inner whisper. My first step into sharing my voice with the world was podcasting. I began sharing my story with the world through my podcast HERE with Felicia Conner, where people can find inspirational talks, and powerful conversations with a variety of guests sharing how they are overcoming the past and living in the present, creating lives they love. After that, I started a fun horror movie review podcast with my friend called Two Chicks and a Horror Flick.
Through taking risks and putting myself out there, sharing a community with other creatives, and working daily on developing open communication and trust with my inner whisper the fire to follow my lifelong dream of becoming an author was raging inside me. So, that’s what I am doing. I am taking the risk. I am showing up and writing. I am not worrying about if I will be successful or not. I have a lot of stories in my heart that want to be told, so I am going to tell them…and we’ll see where that leads.
